哈咯亲爱的大家 亲爱的部落格 我又回来咯！！

最近比较喜欢写日记，有些心里的话，内心的想法，还是不敢赤裸裸的那样和大家说
小女子我也很害羞哦~哈哈 也许怕大家觉得我很奇怪 或者是我自己害怕别人的批评吧 不管是好的坏的 我都很怕。。

听到太多善意的批评会自我膨胀，慢慢就会变得骄傲，觉得自己比别人厉害；听到太多恶意的批评又怕心里会承受不了，为了别人单面的想法或一些话而让自己不开心，很不值得。。
所以说，人，真的不要为了符合别人的要求而活！但是也不能完全为自己而活，这样慢慢会以自己的利益为首要目标，变得太自以为是。。哈哈 不知道你们名不明白我的逻辑，太久没写文章，头脑有点塞车。。哈哈

所以我们要怎样活才是好的列？我觉得最重要是要有一颗善良的心。不与别人比，不与别人争。自己心安理得最重要！最好能带给大家欢乐和正能量就好了 :) 很喜欢一句话 ‘人生是一场旅行，不是比赛’ 我们应该要用一颗可爱的心来看看着美丽的世界，不管你有多少财富，地位有多高，多美丽，终究还是逃不过生，老，病，死。那么我们有何必太执着呢？我们应该尽我们的能力帮助需要帮助的人，让他们少一点痛苦，让这个世界多一点希望，多一些色彩，这样不是很美丽吗？

Anyway, 我真的觉得文字蕴藏着很深的力量。希望自己有朝一日可以有很好的写作能力，并把文字转为正能量和快乐给大家！！

想念爸爸的拥抱

以前在家时 会常常‘强迫’爸爸抱我 哈哈
然后 Angel 和 King 就有以一种很可爱的眼神看我
因为他们也要我抱他们！！ 哈哈哈哈哈

幸福不是理所当然，但是幸福可以很简单

有一个正常的身体，有手，又脚，有头脑
你就很幸福了

有一个家抚育你长大，给你吃，给你喝，给你爱，
你就很幸福了

有一个可以读书的机会，
可以埋怨考试很难，功课很多，压力很多的时候，
你就很幸福了

每一个人都有不同的生活，没有必要把自己幸福的定义和别人的做比较
富人有富人的生活，穷人有穷人的生活。
不是只有在别人眼里看起来好的生活 才会幸福
只要知足常乐，常常怀着感恩的心 就会很快乐哦！！

嗯 其实我不懂为什么我要搞文艺
因为我本来要写 我很想念爸爸的拥抱 和 我是幸福的小孩 哈哈
爸爸的拥抱就是我最大的幸福
现在没有爸爸的拥抱 我也很幸福拉
因为我有爸爸的声音 lol
但是还有 20 天 我就能见到爸爸了 yeahhh

然后我真的觉得我很幸福
我没有倾国倾城的漂亮脸蛋
我也没有魔鬼的性感身材
我也没有全世界最聪明的脑袋

但是我有给我最多 最多爱的家人
我很感谢我能在一个充满爱的环境下成长


快乐是发自内心的，而不是外在的条件给我们的！
所以大家 不管发生什么事 都要快快乐乐哦！

                                                                                                                           31/10/2013

很紧张 很刺激

哈咯 大家 好久不见！本来要搞文艺 写一篇很唯美的文章 名字都取好了 叫 ‘被乌云遮住的彩虹’ 哈哈哈哈哈 可能最近头发长了 烦恼也变得比较多 希望大家有 get 到我的笑话！hahahhaha

好啦我真的觉得自己很疯癫，希望我未来的男朋友可以接受这样‘可爱’的我！哈哈哈哈哈 Ok，我觉得我离题离得很离谱！！其实我要写的是 我很紧张 紧张 因为梦想要实现了！！

我要去 Guatemala 了，倒数 25 天！我的天啊！！
真的感觉这个梦想不再是梦。。
我真的要去我的传播爱之探险之旅了。。
突然有种后悔的感觉。。
为什么我那么爱逞强。。
应该要脚踏实地一步一步来嘛，
应该从邻国开始嘛。。
好吧，没关系，只能说我和 Guatemala 可爱的小朋友比较有缘咯！！

但是我还是好紧张
本来觉得还好
现在想到要做 36 个小时的飞机就觉得怕怕！！
但是我懂我可以的！！
真的很谢谢支持我的家人朋友们！！
尤其是爸爸和干姐姐！！
我一定会好好照顾自己！
把我的爱一点都不剩的传给那里的小朋友！！

虽然开始很怕别人会指责我的行动
但是梦想就是要勇敢的争取不是吗？
只要我和我爱的人知道我做这件事的目的就好了！
我不应该想太多！
我能做这件事真的太幸运 太幸福了
我应该要想的是怎样把这件事做好
怎样回报支持我的人！
对了小倩儿 这样想就对了！！

所以 大家请祝福我平平安安的去，平平安安的回！
哈哈

Just do it!

Did my blood test today! Woohoo, I am a step closer to my dream now！Seriously I think I am a big girl now! I was not afraid of blood test anymore! My phobia of needle is getting smaller and smaller! clap clap for myself  By the way, the blood test is one of the preparations before I go to Guatemala! I still have to take a lot of injections after that.. finger cross I am strong enough so I can have less injections hahahhaha

                Will it be less painful if a handsome doctor do the injection for me? haha :p

So yea, 73 days to my 'Spread the LOVE to Guatemala' challenge (sorry for the fancy name, but I just love it. haha) I am excited for the challenge as usual. However, when this news spread through my family, it becomes a shocking news for them. Most of my family members do not agree with my decision. Most of the reasons are too risky, I cant handle it, too far away.. blah blah blah I understand that they are concern about my safety, and this is because they love me :)

But there are few reasons why I choose to volunteer in Guatemala:

First, volunteering in an undeveloped country is always my dream, and Guatemala is an undeveloped county. 

Second, as my first post mentioned, South Africa was my first choice, but sadly, they dont offer volunteer program at the end of the year. So, Guatemala became my choice. hehe

Third, actually I thought of going to Thailand too, but the programme fee for Guatemala is same as Thailand. So I thought why not choose America since the programme fee are the same, and I can explore the world too. It seemed like a good offer, and I was happy with my SMART decision. BUT I totally forgot about the flight ticket haha

I admit that my decision is a bit impulsive. Maybe I should start from country like Thailand or Vietnam, at least it is nearer to Malaysia and the culture might be similar,it might be easier for me to handle the situation. For Guatemala, it's not a familiar country to me, I don't have any knowledge  about their culture, language and even lifestyle. Is that place safe? What is the distance between Guatemala and Malaysia? What the air flight cost? What the time difference? How can I get there? I can't answer any of these questions when I decided to accept the offer. At that moment, I was just thinking that I want to do something special and memorable for my 21st... Thanks to the fabulous GVN team and Google, my questions are answered.

So, I have to fly 36 hours from Malaysia to Guatemala and transit in 2 countries, which is very exciting lol. Frankly speaking, I am a bit nervous and worry after I getting more and more research and details about Guatemala. But I never regret! I know this challenge will be one of my memorable life experiences. Somehow, I really glad that I made this decision without worried too much. And most importantly, I have a super supportive DADDY <3 He is the only man who encourage me and support me to pursue my dream! I really glad that I have the chance to take this challenge! 

Life is too short! Don't spend too much time to worry about something you really want to do! When you get the chance, don't be afraid of any obstacle, listen to your heart and JUST DO IT. 

  

                            You can do it! I can do it! We can do it!! Do it Do it!!!

做自己

做自己

感觉是一件很容易，很轻松的事

但是

在这世纪好像有点遥不可及

是我成熟了吗 是我看开了吗

每个人（大部分啦）好像都在带着面具做自己

不知不觉 我也好像给自己买了一面面具

有点难过 有点感伤

不明白为什么自己要买一面面具来遮掩自己的疮疤

为什么 为什么 为什么

我很怕人 很怕闲言闲语 很怕 很怕 

哎，小梁儿，你几时才肯把面具撕下呢？

带了面具

掩盖了你的美 你的心 你的真

带了面具

不能散播爱 原来很辛苦

哈哈哈哈哈 还是比较喜欢有能力散播爱的自己

小倩儿 要学习长大 看开 但是还要保持乐观

挑战 困难 是非 障碍 心结 一定会有的

你一定要勇敢的跨过它 这样子才是长大嘛！

这样子才更有能力散播爱

做自己也许给人的感觉比较傻比较笨比较蠢

但是自己还是自己

人家要笑 要讨厌 要看不起 是他们的事

我又没做错事 对不对

没有面具的负担很好很轻松很快乐

心要开开 才能吸收正能量 

倩倩儿 要记得真心 才能散播爱！！

要努力变成更好的人

成为有用的人

加油！！

大家，真的要做自己比较开心哦！！

每个人都是独一无二的！

给自己拍拍手吧！！

大家都是有用的人！！！

把面具撕掉吧！！！！

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

我的愿望是用我的真心搓破你的面具！！哈哈哈

大家都要 HAPPY :D

♥ Spread the L♥VE to Guatemala!!!!! :D ♥

So, I am going to announce something EXCITED in the end of the blog post!! YEAHHHH

I am turning to 21 year-old this year!! Woohooo!! In the beginning of the year I was thinking what should I do to make this year special and memorable, I was also thinking how should I celebrate my 21st birthday party. HAHA Don't know why, I just don't feel like having a birthday party this year or, in otehr words, celebrate my 21st birthday. I am not afraid of become older la k! Just have a feeling that I DONT WANT TO CELEBRATE IT! But, I always have a weird thought! I always think that 21-year-old is a cool age! I feel more mature and smart when I tell others I am 21! Like I am an adult now, I am big, I am 21 and call me JIE JIE!! hahaha So I think I really have to do something special when I turning to be 21!

                                    THINKING THINKING THINKING


Flash back to March. One night, I was insomnia. So what to do? Think about what can I do to make my 21 year old special loh! HAHA Suddenly, a thought popped into my head! I was like 'YES! THIS IS WHAT I REALLY WANT TO DO!!!!!!'

                         I WANT TO DO VOLUNTEER WORK IN SOUTH AFRICA!!!


I jumped up from the bed, turned on my computer and started my research! I found all sources of information, at that moment, I realized that there are so many organisation support us to do volunteer work in undeveloped country!! I was so happy! I take note to compare the differences between those organisations, like what program they offer, how much they cost, how it works etc..I applied to few programs to South Africa with different organisations, praying that I can got an offer from any one of the organisation. Disappointingly, South Africa does not offer volunteer work during end of the year :c. I felt down a bit, but very soon, I started my research again!


My second option was America. At last I applied the Childcare and Orphanage Project, in Guatemala (Central America),under Global Volunteer Network (GVN). DANG DANG Few days later, I received an email from GVN, with the lovely tittle "WELCOME TO THE GUATEMALA PROGRAMME"!!! Woohooo I got it!! I can go to Guatemala for volunteer work!! I quickly gave my dad a phone call, and told him the good news. My dad was very shocked, he never thought that I was that serious in the volunteer work. On the other hand , I was overwhelmed by the happiness, I kept telling my dad how this gonna work, how I can spread the love to the kids in Guatemala, how can I change the world etc etc hahahahhaha But, I got really little response from my dad, maybe he was just too surprised and shocked. It didn't seems like a good news for him at that time. Anyway, I was SO SO SO HAPPY that time, I had so much passion and I ready to spread the LOVE to Guatemala, of course I was really grateful to have the opportunity to challenge myself!

Kids is Guatemala!! They are so cute :D and they are waiting for my love ♥♥ hahaha

La Anigua, I will do my volunteer work in this little town

Guatemala!!

HAHA So guys, I am here to announce: I am going to Guatemala for volunteer work, from 22nd of Nov to 21st of Dec. I will keep my blog update as I want to record everything I have experienced while preparing myself to Guatemala!

                               I want to spread my LOVE to Guatemala!! Woohoo :D
                                     SuperGirl is going to be SUPER! YEAHHHH

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信心是生命的力量！

哈哈 又是一个失眠的夜晚！最近都睡不好，好难过啊，嗯，正确来说应该是下午睡太多，晚上都睡不着！哈哈 自作自受 loll 最近的心情起伏好大啊 大到我都不认识我自己 大到我都不敢见人了 hhahahha 好啦 没有那么夸张 haha

但是一路来很幸运的我，还是那么幸运！！！才刚刚开始我的低潮期，我又要开始自 high 了！哈哈 哎哟，人嘛 就是要给自己拍拍手，鼓励鼓励，生活才会开心，才能散播爱阿！！有时候真地很爱 阅读，没有错，我很爱阅读，哈哈 很喜欢被文字启发的感觉，那种感动是从心里散发出来的，很温暖，很踏实，很真！但是很多时候我都很懒 哈哈 小小的惭愧。。

对了 我要说我很幸运是因为在这个辗转难眠，要以泪洗脸( hahahahha) 的夜晚，突然一个念头，把我从温暖的被窝拉起来，从书橱随手拿了一本书来看！看了几页，睡意都消失拉，正能量完完全全的回来啦！！！！！！！！！！！ Yeahhhhhhhhh 就这样 我很开心，心情很激动 想要打 Blog lol

很喜欢书里写的，

“不要因为惧怕而嘲笑而变成一个懦夫。面对流言蜚语，要奋勇向前！当你尽了最大的努力却还没有成功时，不要放弃，只要继续努力或开启另一个计划就行了！”

亲爱的大家，不要为了迎合着世界，而把自己给弄不见了！！要勇敢的做自己，每天学习，每天进步，每天都要做个有用的人！！每一天 都要努力 努力 在努力！！

我会记得我的目标！！脚踏实地 天天都要进步！！

大家一起加油！！ Yeahhhh :D